Wondering and Wandering and Waiting

Sometimes finding where to begin can feel like the hardest part but the beauty of it all is that you can begin again. Snails begin again all the time. In fact, they operate in a cycle of rest, run, rest run. Now, I know run feels like a silly term to use when talking about a snail. But truly, they hurry around taking care of their business. They can do that because they have rested! “Slowly, slowly, we begin again” is the new title of my evening length performance work previously referred to as “Gastropod”. Over the past two years, I have stepped in and out of this work endlessly, taking time to rest in my shell and time to emerge and run around taking care of tasks. The performance is coming, at a snail’s pace. No matter how slow the progress, I am so proud of myself for not giving up on the project. In this life, progress often looks different than you imagine it to and the older I get, the more I am able to take things at the pace in which they present themselves. Yesterday was my birthday and I was asked to recount something I had learned in the last year. To my surprise, I said “How to be patient with myself”. I am always learning how to be patient, how to wait, how to wonder. Wondering and wandering, we move on. I am not waiting to begin-I have done that many times. I am waiting for when the beginning leads to the ending. When that moment arrives, I look forward to sharing it with you.