Fear

Creating can be scary and starting is the hardest part. Where can I even begin with such a large creative undertaking? I am in so far over my head and I am also not in at all. My whole life I have been a jump in and figure it out kind of person but lately I feel like I am drowning...Maybe I have been treading water for too long. Now I feel like I am swimming to land that isn't ever getting closer but man, I hecking hope it is. It is 1am and my brain feels like mashed potatoes, my eyes are actually closed as I type this. Anyhow, I am afraid of this work and I am not entirely sure why. Nor am I sure how to fix it. In this moment, I am sad.